Monday, April 16, 2007
I DON'T BELIEVE IN PRETENDING...
I AM OFTEN VERY VERY MISUNDERSTOOD... WHICH IS NO SURPRISE... CAUSE I DO NOT BELIEVE IN PRETENDING OR ACTING NICE...
I am not perfect!!! I am a very tall and huge girl!!! YES! i am fat... but i don't think that is wrong. It's not healthy yes, that's why i am trying to loose weight... I have a nose that is 45 degrees to the right! Yes i have had my nose broken many times! I have terribly distorted teeth!!! This only happened cause i have had my jaw redesigned a couple of times courtesy to my dad's punches!!! But i embrace it all cause its me!!! My flaws are a part of me and i keep them real!!! I just don't understand how being REAL means i am spoilt or am a bitch??!!
PLEASE LOR!!!
Recently i had a school project, a visual essay on the Topic of Visual Culture. I did a Comic/ Book called Facade! It's basically about an Indian Girl living in midst of western culture and how what she sees and what she thinks she has to be changes her for the worst! Basically the book has a strong message , " DON'T TRY YOUR BEST TO BE SOMEONE ELSE WHEN YOU ARE THE BEST AT BEING YOU!"
The cover of my book... Done by Me with Photoshop CS2..
AND THESE ARE SOME OF THE PROMOTIONAL ITEMS I CAME UP WITH... THESE ARE TWO POSTCARDS FROM THE POST CARDS SERIES!!!
THESE AND THE OTHERS WERE DONE WITH PHOTOSHOP CS2 AS WELL... THANKS TO VANESSA AND SHANGARI FOR THE PICTURES!
WELL NOW FOR THE REAL ISSUE OF TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES! MY MAN AND ME... You know the feeling when the whole world is against you and you know you have that one shoulder to lean on no matter what happens... Well that was what he was to me.... BUT NOW I KNOW THAT HE HAS GOT ISSUES WITH ME BEING MYSELF TOO!!!
I mean i love hi to death and i know he does too, its just that we have differences and i know a relationship is all about give and take... but its just sucks to know that what you do will never be enough and will never be appreciated! And when we do fight its always about money!!! I MEAN LIKE HELLO!!!!
It sickens me to think that something as small and common as money can make us have such horrifying feuds against each other!!! And during fights i stand my grounds and fight for what i believe in!!! THATS WHERE HE DOESN'T LIKE IT!!!
1. I AM NOT ONE OF THOSE GIRLS WHO WOULD JUST PLAY NICE TO KEEP HER GUY!!
I am very strong minded and i will fight for what i believe is right!
2. IF I AM IN THE WRONG I WOULD APOLOGISE!
Why do i have to be forced to apologise for things that i don't do just because he doesn't want to admit cause he is just stubborn!!!
3. I MADE HIM A "JAATHO"!!!
And when i do make him admit he says i am controlling his life!!! and i am making him a "Jaatho" -> a man living under his wives/gf's skirt!
AIYOOOOO!!!!!! JEYA!!!! CAN'T LIVE WITH HIM CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT HIM!!! We have been together for 26 months and we have been through shit! Hell alot of SHIT! Now... its just down to me changing my believes to make it work and sail smoothly... I don't think i will be able to do it though... cos i hate girls who do that... Well just needed to let it out la....
